Will I Ever Be the Same Again? Free online reading

Blessed with a loving family, a successful business as an executive coach, and money in the bank, Carol Kivler was suddenly and unexpectedly brought to her knees by "The Beast" - clinical depression. The story of her journey to recovery from medication-resistant depression is not only informative, but it inspires hope in others who suffer from this debilitating illness.

Kivler's book is written for multiple audiences, especially individuals who are suffering from major depression and their loved ones. It is also for health care providers, who often make the difference between giving up and recovery for those suffering from mental illness. Her Courageous Recovery Wellness Model provides a road map for recovery while addressing the misconceptions and stigma associated with depression.

Major depression is not an attitude. It is not a personality dysfunction. It is not a flaw in character. It is not laziness or a call for attention. It is not hurt feelings or a reaction to a bump in the road. It is not contagious. Depression is not something that can be brought on or fought off by self-will. Depression is not something to be ashamed of. And, most importantly, it is not something that should be ignored. Left untreated, serious depression can be life crippling and even lead to death (by suicide).

Because medication did not work for her, and despite serious reservations, Kivler eventually agreed to ECT (electroconvulsive therapy, or shock therapy). The treatment gave her back not only the desire to live but the ability to thrive in her personal and professional lives. Electroconvulsive therapy became her ladder out of the depression pit.